Dear Victoria

by Sainthill

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This album is about the passing of Victoria Cuthbert.

The thoughts of Victoria, her husband John, her adult children Linda and Joe, her teenage daughter Hope, and the family dog Rufus are revealed in these songs…

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released June 9, 2012

Written, recorded, and performed by Tom Larkey, except:

Oliver Mann (vocals & handclaps on John's Song)
Marita Dyson (vocals on Linda's Song)
Brea Acton (vocals on Hope's Song)
Josh Armistead (vocals on Joe's Song)
Elizabeth Downey (vocals on Victoria's Song)

Mastered by Michael Tayler

Cover painting by Grant Nimmo

In loving memory of Matzi and Anne

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Sainthill Melbourne, Australia

Sainthill is a Melbourne-based musician who deals in sparse, lonesome Australiana. Dream-like, slow and melancholic, Sainthill's gently pensive songs paint vignettes of death, fear, friendship, family and hope. Sainthill released his album Man Alive back in 2014 before buggering off to the US for a bit. He’s now back down under where his music arguably belongs. ... more

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Track Name: John's Song (with Oliver Mann)
In the old gum tree there's a widow maker
But of me and dear Victoria
They decided to take her
I'm still up the ladder when the sun sets
And I've pruned so many branches
It's like I've undressed her

Sleep won't come
I'm staring down the gloom again
In the twilight
I tidy our room so quietly

And seven days after, after she went
I'm clearing a fallen trunk
As the gum's life was spent
I'm just a little drunk again when I go to bed
And I hope that she felt
Peace at the end

Sleep won't come
I'm staring down the gloom again
In the twilight
I tidy our room so quietly
Books back on the shelf
Into the corner push the chair
I go to straighten the photo frames
But all I do is stare

To my dear daughters
And my son too
Thank you for being here
It's all you need to do
Track Name: Linda's Song (with Marita Dyson)
My lover is a gentle man
Strong, six foot and a handsome Dan
And with his olive skin
People say we could be kin

But when I try to make him smile
His blank expression makes me think awhile
And how my mother surely
Would have laughed in her own way

Right up until the end
She was my best friend

But when she left us on that autumn night
Her moonlit bed was such a heartbreaking sight
And I accepted gladly
To have arms around me

Well today I made a terrible joke
And he laughed so hard even as I spoke
So I think I'm learning slowly
How to make this all work

Right up until the end
She was my best friend
But I'll start again
Track Name: Hope's Song (with Brea Acton)
I used to play hide and seek with my sister
But she could never be bothered to find me
But as I grew, until almost a woman
We would talk, she'd buy me alcohol
And I loved her
And she liked me too

Well I've got a secret tattoo
And I think that Linda would like it
But I know I know I know
Ma would hate it
Maybe...

But it's that night and we're gathered round
And I pull up my sleeve, there isn't a sound
Then mum goes to speak
But it comes out a laugh
And she tells me that she had wanted one too
Of a kangaroo

Well I've got a secret boy too
And I think that Linda would like him
But I know I know I know
I'm just not sure anymore
What ma would've thought

'Cause now she'll never meet him
And that makes me sad
But I don't think it'll last anyway
So it's not... not all that bad
It's not all that bad
Track Name: Joe's Song (with Josh Armistead)
I don't know the last time I cried
Maybe it was when our first dog died
My new girl she's coming round tonight
And I don’t want her to see my bloodshot eyes

But I feel so bad I didn't cry
The minute I found out she died
But I'll make up for it in time
But only until I'm alright

What a relief to flow my tears
Stowing them, it hurt my head
They came free flowing the moment we
Lifted her body from the bed

But I feel so bad that I didn't cry
The minute I found out she died
But I'll make up for it in time
But only until I'm alright

My girl is here
Yeah my girl she's here
And something about her reminds me
And she wipes them away
Track Name: Rufus' Song
I haven’t been outside today
Nobody took me
And I haven’t had any food today
Nobody fed me
Well I haven’t seen her at all today
I wonder where she went to
Nobody seems to notice me

Today I sense a great sadness
And I try to help in my own way
I sit right beside him and I
Absorb the pain

Well it’s better than laying there all day long
And anyway, the shade has gone from the lawn
When I took them all for a walk last night
It felt like the best time of my life

And I still haven’t seen her
And I can’t even smell her
And I wish I could just eat something soon
I liked her, she gave me more

Today I sense a great sadness
And I try to help in my own way
I sit right beside him and I
Absorb the pain
Track Name: Victoria's Song (with Elizabeth Downey)
I was so much lighter than I should have been
John set me up with a view of the tree
I wasn't that sad, just a little scared
At least all my secrets had been shared

I ran movies and pictures through my head
Like lightning skies and the kids in bed
And us staying up in our rented shack
Watching that sky go from white to black

I wondered how others fill their last days
Dream vacations or one last lay?
I wouldn't do with anything else
Than tea with John, joking "to my health!"

Am I going to be a ghost tonight
Or will I turn into a shooting star
That my whole family will watch
From the verandah tonight